Reality vs. Preconceived Notions
I suppose I thought that one could buy a home easier. Where we live, in the North Shore of Massachusetts, I think you have to be making around $100,000 per year to afford a nice home. Not a mansion or a fancy home, but a nice one. I think you can get a fixer-upper with some problems if you're making $75,000 or so. We don't make that much.
I guess I thought vacations would be easier to plan and more fun. The reality is that all warm locations are very far away. All very far away locations require flying. I hate to fly. Other vacation ideas just seem like huge sums of money and huge amounts of planning and Elenora-related considerations.
I think I thought that marriage would be different. It's a lot of work, and I'm not very good at being appreciative of the elements that are positive. I have a huge problem with knowing how to appreciate the things I take for granted. Maybe I don't try very hard. I expect things to be good, but seem to be inept at making them good.
The reality is, I'm playing in a concert this Saturday night that is about the most challenging I've ever participated in. Fast, complicated music for two hours.
The night before that, I'm performing a violin solo at the school where I teach. I feel kinda nervous about it, but there's a part of me (this part is not winning out currently) that thinks it's kinda cool that I get a chance to play and enjoy the wonderful music of Bach.
The reality is I hurt my knee in a basketball game last night. I thought I could avoid getting hurt this year, because I usually do.
The reality is that we went to church last Sunday. That was good, and I think we'll go again. Tentatively speaking, with great timidity and uncertainty, I think we've found a church. Elenora was very good in the nursery.
Elenora is a precious blessing. She's very active, smart and engaging, and that's reality too.
I guess I thought vacations would be easier to plan and more fun. The reality is that all warm locations are very far away. All very far away locations require flying. I hate to fly. Other vacation ideas just seem like huge sums of money and huge amounts of planning and Elenora-related considerations.
I think I thought that marriage would be different. It's a lot of work, and I'm not very good at being appreciative of the elements that are positive. I have a huge problem with knowing how to appreciate the things I take for granted. Maybe I don't try very hard. I expect things to be good, but seem to be inept at making them good.
The reality is, I'm playing in a concert this Saturday night that is about the most challenging I've ever participated in. Fast, complicated music for two hours.
The night before that, I'm performing a violin solo at the school where I teach. I feel kinda nervous about it, but there's a part of me (this part is not winning out currently) that thinks it's kinda cool that I get a chance to play and enjoy the wonderful music of Bach.
The reality is I hurt my knee in a basketball game last night. I thought I could avoid getting hurt this year, because I usually do.
The reality is that we went to church last Sunday. That was good, and I think we'll go again. Tentatively speaking, with great timidity and uncertainty, I think we've found a church. Elenora was very good in the nursery.
Elenora is a precious blessing. She's very active, smart and engaging, and that's reality too.
posted by J B at 11:33 AM
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