just faith

My job situation is not yet resolved. Yet there is light in my heart and there is a feeble attempt at trusting. In a simplistic way, I'm trying to remember that God is a Heavenly Father and that His goodness and kindness and provision far exceeds anything humanly imaginable. Being a father myself, I know how it feels to care for a child. I know what it is to think about that child's needs and how much you find yourself caring about that. I love my daughter and God loves me. Somewhere in that equation, I've learned something.

Today I received much positive feedback from clients I've been working with. It was one of the most rewarding days of work I've ever had. I try hard in each session to achieve true help for the specific individual sitting in front of me. This is not in vain. While I continue to struggle with the fact that being a good therapist feels irrelevant to my success, I can be glad to know that I haven't been wasting my time in trying to go down this path. It does appear that God has given me the ability to be effective in this capacity. How we'll pay next month's rent is another story.

I've gone through the process of applying for things and even sitting down for a formal group interview. I have been led to believe that I will know by the end of this week whether or not I have a "good" job. Trusting that my Heavenly Father knows best and that regardless of the outcome of this specific situation He loves me and cares about my future is the real task at hand.