unprepared

There are many things to be considered before the birth of your first child. Birthing classes address many of the questions, while eager relatives and helpful books aid in enlightening one's perspective and enabling one's preparedness. Eventually, the nursery is ready and the birth plan is established. You declare yourself prepared.

One thing that I wasn't prepared for was the length of this wait. "Any day now" is getting old. Trying to prepare for A. the most significant day of your life or B. another average day is a challenging task. Each day presents itself as a question mark. However, one can't help but prefer that the day produce the baby and be amazing and not just be another average day. But so far, each day has come and gone as nothing more than another notch on the pregnancy calendar. 5 days late now, with no assurance of anything but continued question marks.

God's plans are good and right. My feelings are stupid. Apparently this pattern begins in childhood and continues to the grave. I am truly looking forward to the birth of this child, an occasion where hopefully my feelings can actually be a good thing.